Thursday, December 15, 2005

New Year....2006....What do you have in mind for you and your recovery, life, and well-being in the New Year?

18 comments:

Jeanette said...

I want my health to be in a better place next year. I would like to not have to go to the hospital all the time. I would like to being doing really well in recovery so that I do not have to go back into treatment at all. I want to increase my variety of foods that I eat. I want to be more willing then I already am. I want some of the stress that goes with eating to lessen. I want to feel a little freer when it comes to food and the decisions I make regarding it. I want to love my body the way it looks right now and not think of all the flaws that might (or might not) be there. I want to appreciate my body for what it does for me.

More than anything, I want the peace that I have gained this year througout my struggles to continue to grow. I want my relationship with Christ to become even closer and I want to lean on him for support and not try and do everything for myself.

I also would love for some of my friends that I was in treatment with to get into recovery. I do not want to loose anyone else this year due to this illness.

Is that asking too much???

Anonymous said...

Thanks for listening tonight. I am so glad to have you all in my life. I am going to start seeing a nutritionist this year (with and without Tate...we talked this evening). Although I am having a rough time, I am still very thankful and I feel committed to getting on track. I want to thank EVERYONE in the group for your feedback, support, and encouragement. I am struggling with the current hurdle but the past has shown me that I can do it.
Thanks for being there for me!
Linda

Jeanette said...

Linda,

I am so sorry I had to leave before you shared last night. I think seeing the nutritionist is a great idea. I think getting Tate involved in the process might also benefit you both. I know with some of my friends (closer ones) the more I let them into my world...the more they can help by being supportive. I love your postive attitude. That will help you overcome those hurdles so much easier. I think sometimes when I have a negative attitude the "weight" of that attitude dragging me downs makes it that much harder to jump over the hurdle.

Anonymous said...

Hey Gals!
I have been working really hard with my therapist, reading and writing. Things are pretty crazy right now and this seems to be what's keeping me going. Nutrition has been very up and down lately and I am anxious about meeting with the nutritionist. I am going to Austin for the weekend (without the girls :) and hope that this will be the much needed break that I have been longing for for some time. I'll leave you all with a few quotes from my therapist that I have really been focusing on lately:
"Feelings are not facts"
and
"Left foot, right foot, BREATHE!"
Hope you all survived the holidays unscathed and that you were able to enjoy yourselves.

Take Care!
Linda

Jeanette said...

Sorry I have not been around much lately. I have used this vacation time as a means of relaxing and staying away from the computer and work. Things are fair with me (could be better....could be worse).

I wanted to add another quote that I have been using lately:
"Fat is not a feeling"

Jeanette said...

I have had some pretty major developments in my life in the past week and I am not sure how I am dealing with it all. Normally this would be a good thing because it means my body is getting healthier.....but it is hard for me to look at it like that. I know my vision is sometimes distorted because of how I view things through the disordered thinking. However, with my body already in bad shape (medically) I am not sure this is the best thing that could happen. I am left feeling sicker and even more tired then before. I want to be excited about getting better.....but it is sooooooooooooo hard sometimes to get excited about it. Does that make sense to anyone?

J

Jeanette said...

If I see another pop-up ad for weight loss I think I am going to scream. I even have a pop-up blocker on my computer!!!! This is driving me insane. Plus....what is it with weight loss companies and viagra sending out huge bulk e-mails regarding their products??? I don't want any (of either!!!!) Ok....sorry I just needed to vent!

Anonymous said...

Hey, I love all the new sayings. It beats my, "food is fun" one. I like that feelings are not facts, Linda. I must keep telling myself that one.

Sounds like you are doing some amazing work and I'm so psyched for you that you're making an appointment with a nutritionist. You're going to make wonderful progress! Thanks for the words of inspiration.
C

Anonymous said...

I hope that this new year i dont have to go to any hospitals. I want to be eating disorder free.

Anonymous said...

Feeling are not facts. I'm am riding out a horrible low. I am praying that this is a form of chipping away at what has kept me prisoner for so many years. Despite my current circumstances, I am setting up appts. with a nutritionist and a psychiatrist today. It's been some time since my treatment team has been intact. I am scared but I also feel a sense of security at the same time. I feel like I am going around the all to familiar circle/cycle again.... but I am still eating and I still have hope. I am feeling scarily low but I am not going to let this emotion (that will eventually pass) run me and my recovery into the ground. I am not feeling particularly positive and this is ok. My emotions have so much power over me but I am hopeful that this doesn't always have to be the case. I thank God that I stumbled upon our group. You gals have no idea how much you mean to me and how much your love, support, and encouragement has lifted me up. Thank you!
Have a great weekend!
-Linda

Jeanette said...

I am so sorry I missed group this week. I had a medical issue that came up that prohibited me from being there.

Linda I can so relate to what you are saying. It is okay not to be "up" all the time. I use to think I had to always be up for everyone else around me even though I was hurting so much inside. Just because you are not up does not mean you are down either.....it just means you are not up. I am so glad you still have hope. All is not lost and remember this is a journey not a destination. I think you have so many valid arguements in your statement above. Keep telling yourself that these emotions will pass. I think the positive self-talk is one of the MAJOR things that can get you through any struggle. It really is true that what we tell ourselves determines our actions in a lot of situations.

Keep up the awesome work Linda....it is really encouraging to see.

Anonymous said...

Thanks Jeanette. I hope that you are feeling better and will be able to make it to group next week.
-Linda

Jeanette said...

I do not know about everyone else but one thing I really want to work on this year is having a voice and being able to express how I really feel and being true to myself. I just want to be true to what I know I feel inside and so I am not holding everything inside. That does not mean I have to hurt others around me but I just am true to myself.

Anonymous said...

I just want to be happy in life!! I am soo tired of being stressed out and miserable all the time. My heart just races from stress and anxiety! I hope that someday I can find TRUE happiness in my life. No matter what I do I can't seem to find happiness. It is really frustrating. I want to keep searching for happiness and hopefully find it ONE day!

Jeanette said...

I am sitting here at work (obviously not working....) and started thinking about a relationship that I am/was involved in that has just recently ended. I can not believe how much pressure and blame I put on myself when a relationship does not work out. It is like all my fault even though there person has free will and the ability to decide. Yet I am left with the thoughts if I would have just done more or been better or whatever.....

Does anyone else do this?

Jeanette said...

I am sitting here at work (not working) and was struck by something. I just wrote in a previous post what I was struck with but it seemed to disappear into cyber air. I will try this again....

I just recently had a relationship that I was involved in end. What amazed me is how hard I am on myself regarding that relationship as if I am the only person involved in that relationship and that other person does not have free will.

I say to myself if you would have just done more if you would have been a better person and on and on.....

Does anyone else do this?

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